Where did the time go?

I've been so busy I didn't even realize November is gone and December is more then halfway over! Wow! I can't believe what work does to you! It's been crazy how fast the days go by. Work has been pretty good. I had the worst call I've ever had yesterday. It was about 40 mins long and during the call my boss came over and gave me the thumbs up sign telling me I'm handling it well. I've never gotten so angry over a phone call before. I was able to take a little personal time so I could calm down when it was over. I could feel my heart racing and the blood pumping so fast! I ended up calling Jason and just talking to him about the kids so I could calm down. It worked. It's just funny how life works sometimes. Earlier that day I had one of my co workers ask me a personal question. He asked me if I was truly happy. It caught me off guard. I knew the answer right away but didn't know my co worker enough to know how much I wanted to say. We've had discussions before about his faith (the guy had faith tattooed to his neck and three Japanese symbols on his arm meaning faith, hope, pray) so I knew he was already spiritual. I decided to go forward with it. I looked him in the eye and told him. "Honestly, yes I am. Because I know my Heavenly Father loves me for who I am and looks past my faults and loves me anyway. He forgave me for the things I have done in the past. He is constantly showering me with beautiful blessings. He is the reason why I am the person I am today and I couldn't be more thankful for His love." I think I caught him off guard because all he said was "Wow!" :) He then said "Your lucky. I ask that to people often and I rarely get a yes." I them asked him if he was happy and he said "For the most part, yes I am. But I feel like there's something more for me to do. I feel like there's something..." "Missing?" I said. "Yes!" I knew exactly what he was talking about. I know what he is missing. And he's right, I am very lucky to have my faith and know who I am and know that I am loved. I love my Heavenly Father so much for bringing me to this beautiful place and giving me so many blessings. I'm so thankful for the life I have. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. 

Love Always & Forever,

Nini V. 

I cried.

Yesterday at church we had what we call fast and testimony meeting. It's when we fast for two meals that day and then we have the opportunity to bear our testimony in front of the congregation. We have it once a month. I usually try to stop myself from going up there every time. Yesterday, I couldn't. I had listened to others bear their testimony and I was crying before I even went up there. It was a great feeling knowing that my Heavenly Father has not only helped me with my trials but is helping others too. I was so thankful for the life my Heavenly Father has given me that I had to share. Even with all these trials we've come to these past months I am so thankful for the experiences that will only make me stronger. I went up to the pulpit and started to talk about everything going on. And I lost it. I cried. And I cried hard. I don't normally cry that hard when I get in front of people. I couldn't help it. I tried to hold back the tears as best I could. But I had to step away from the mic just so I could sob. But it was good tears. It was tears of thankfulness. Because I know that my Heavenly Father is by my side holding my hand through all of it. I am thankful for the love He shows me. He has given me my family to love. I am thankful for my life and my family and friends that I have. I love my life. 

Love Always and Forever, 

Nini V.