So now you know my family. Like I said, my upbringing wasn't the greatest. But looking back now I learned a lot of things that pertain to living. I learned that I never wanted to hit my children out of anger. I learned to not have too many kids that I couldn't handle. I learned to say I love you to my family every day. I learned that making mistakes is a good way to learn, whether you make them yourself or learn from someone else making them. I learned that no matter where I am or what I'm doing, I will always be loved. That is a whole other blog though. Religion.
So, here I am, about to turn 35 in a few weeks. And I've experienced a lot. Once I was married I took on a job only to find out that we were expecting. I was tired of my job and how it was a family business which means the family walked all over us and we were treated like nothing. So, I walked away. However, Jason and I just bought our first house that very same week. I needed another job and fast! I got one. Working at a collection agency. What a great experience! I learned that I will NEVER write a check for funds I don't have. Holy cow! That can get expensive! Anyway, when DJ was born I quit my job and stayed home. Boy, was that hard for me. Like I said, I'm not one to just sit around. I had a very hard time. I loved my son, loved spending time with him but felt so useless! I literally felt like a milk supply and a maid. Not that I cleaned much (I've never liked cleaning and it's a running joke with our family how I clean the least of all of us). So ups and downs came with Jason and I but we were able to pull through it. (Not to mention the most important part of lack of sleep due to our baby who hardly ever slept!)
So I started trying new things. Grandma Van tried to teach me how to knit. Not to interested. I taught myself how to cross-stitch. Still have the DJ that I started when he was a baby that is still not finished! So, I started doing things with friends that had kids also. Although, most people my age were not having kids. So the majority of the people I hung out with were older. That was tough for me.
Once Karlee was born I was feeling a bit better about myself. Going from one kid to two was very easy for me. Karlee and DJ got a long very well. I felt I can handle things. I started doing extra things that was fun for me. I started doing a murder mystery play when Karlee was 8 months old. I learned how to sew and loved it!!! I started sewing the kids' pajamas all the time! I even sewed Karlee's Halloween costume when she was two! Boo from Monster's Inc. I love sewing.
When Ashlee came DJ was in kindergarten. In fact, she was born on his second day of school. It was a great transition into my kids starting school. I never really had time to think about the fact that my son was starting school! So, I helped out in his class, had Karlee in gymnastics and volunteered for the March of Dimes. Things were good! I volunteered as much as I could for anything and everything. They also started a local group of the MOMS Club where I cherished going to events. I later became president of the club and has also been secretary and Vice President several times. I loved working with other people, helping them out and letting them know there are other people just like them going through the exact same things. It was great.
Some hard things for me though was to learn that not everyone liked people like me and not everyone would drop everything to help those around them. It was hard for me to connect to people because I kind of expected them to treat me the way I treated them. It's been a very hard lesson for me to learn. I still have some times where I wish I had a close friend that really knew me and my heart. I mean a girl friend. I always have Jason to talk to but it's not the same as a female to share these crazy emotions with. :p
Anyway, so that's pretty much me. I am an emotional basket case sometimes but can be there for you in a drop of a hat if you need me. I hope you all have enjoyed yourselves.
Love always and forever,
Nini V.
Monday, October 28, 2013
Me, Myself and I
So, you got through my rant from working on everything else huh? So, want to know more about me? Ok, here it goes.
My name is Nini. I've been Nini for as long as I can remember but it's not my real name. Everyone who really knows me calls me Nini. I'm the fourth of five children in my family. I have my older sister Jamie who is married to Rob, then my brother JT who is married to Becky, then my sister Nani who is married to Jon, then me and then my younger brother Josh who is engaged to Trina.
We didn't have the greatest upbringing. Let me start with my mother. She was born in Taiwan. When she was....I can't remember, 3, 5 or 8 years old she was given up for adoption and was raised in California by two people who abused her. In every way. I don't have much good news about them. I'm still surprised at how well my mom is after all that she's been through already. She's a strong woman. For awhile there I actually wasn't even speaking to my mom. But what happened between us made us closer now.
Then there is my dad. He is the youngest of three boys. Before he was born his father went missing and still to this day we have no idea where he ended up. My grandmother raised all three boys on her own. Growing up my grandma was not just my grandma but my grandpa too. She made up for it though. She was always there for us. On weekends we would spend the night at her place and she'd take us bowling every Saturday. Oh back to my dad. My dad didn't finish high school. He was literally so bored because he was too smart and they wouldn't let him move on that he got tired of it and quit. He has been quite the successful man owning a very successful restaurant for a man without a high school diploma. Having my dad grow up the way he did, I don't think he really knew how to be a father. I still have a hard time getting close to him and opening up. He's not one to talk much. Not to mention he was gone a lot with the restaurant.
So my upbringing was just that. My mom in turn abused us girls and my dad was hardly ever home. I looked up to my sister Jamie a lot. She gave me hope for being a good person. She of course is not perfect and made some mistakes along the way but lucky for me I was able to learn from her mistakes. And Nani's mistakes, and JT's mistakes and why not....Josh made quite the amount of mistakes too that I learned NOT to do.
Shoot, it's time to make dinner. I guess I'll have to go into my life story again, next time I write. I'm starting to get the hang of this. Although, I'm wondering why you might still be reading this. I feel like it's not that interesting so far. I don't know, I'm always second guessing myself and my abilities too.
Gotta make dinner now. :)
Thanks for your support!
Nini V.
My name is Nini. I've been Nini for as long as I can remember but it's not my real name. Everyone who really knows me calls me Nini. I'm the fourth of five children in my family. I have my older sister Jamie who is married to Rob, then my brother JT who is married to Becky, then my sister Nani who is married to Jon, then me and then my younger brother Josh who is engaged to Trina.
We didn't have the greatest upbringing. Let me start with my mother. She was born in Taiwan. When she was....I can't remember, 3, 5 or 8 years old she was given up for adoption and was raised in California by two people who abused her. In every way. I don't have much good news about them. I'm still surprised at how well my mom is after all that she's been through already. She's a strong woman. For awhile there I actually wasn't even speaking to my mom. But what happened between us made us closer now.
Then there is my dad. He is the youngest of three boys. Before he was born his father went missing and still to this day we have no idea where he ended up. My grandmother raised all three boys on her own. Growing up my grandma was not just my grandma but my grandpa too. She made up for it though. She was always there for us. On weekends we would spend the night at her place and she'd take us bowling every Saturday. Oh back to my dad. My dad didn't finish high school. He was literally so bored because he was too smart and they wouldn't let him move on that he got tired of it and quit. He has been quite the successful man owning a very successful restaurant for a man without a high school diploma. Having my dad grow up the way he did, I don't think he really knew how to be a father. I still have a hard time getting close to him and opening up. He's not one to talk much. Not to mention he was gone a lot with the restaurant.
So my upbringing was just that. My mom in turn abused us girls and my dad was hardly ever home. I looked up to my sister Jamie a lot. She gave me hope for being a good person. She of course is not perfect and made some mistakes along the way but lucky for me I was able to learn from her mistakes. And Nani's mistakes, and JT's mistakes and why not....Josh made quite the amount of mistakes too that I learned NOT to do.
Shoot, it's time to make dinner. I guess I'll have to go into my life story again, next time I write. I'm starting to get the hang of this. Although, I'm wondering why you might still be reading this. I feel like it's not that interesting so far. I don't know, I'm always second guessing myself and my abilities too.
Gotta make dinner now. :)
Thanks for your support!
Nini V.
And then came the rain
I'm back! Didn't get to finish yesterday but I'm here now. :) So, Let's start where we left off. Jason has worked at his job for a long time now. It's been good to us. When we were first married he was part time there. When we found out we were expecting DJ he ended up getting full time. Perfect! Then when Karlee was born he ended up becoming a licensed optician! Then when Ashlee was born he became the Optical Manager. Life was good for us! He has since stayed manager and we are doing great with it.
So fast forward a few years and here we are. So, the start of this school year was going great. I applied for a substitute position at the schools as a parapro but nothing ever came out of it. So I applied a couple other places too. But this place has worked so well with Jason why not try out the call center right? I mean, what else could be right up my alley! Computers and talking on the phone! Perfect!!! So I applied and got the job a few weeks later. It was fun at first because I knew quite a bit of people there. I mean, they had to search for someone to interview me because most of them knew me! It was funny.
So I get hired and I go to orientation on a Wednesday. Then on Thursday I find out that my mom has stage two breast cancer and could spread quite aggressively. Wow! I start training on Monday and my mom has cancer. Huh. What a great way to start a job right? Well, here I am in my second week of training and all I want to do is crawl up into a ball and just start crying.
I thought about all that has happened and I'm honestly surprised I'm not in an asylum right now! I think I'm overwhelmed by all that I'm learning at work. It's quite a lot of information that we will have to hold onto in order to be a good customer service agent.
But it's not only that. Jason has worked for this place for a long time. He wants to make sure that I can hold up to the Vandy name! Not that I'm a bad worker or slack off often. But I did ask if I could take an extended lunch during training to go to my moms Oncology appt. Is that ok? Or what about asking for next Saturday off since I have a class that we paid $185 for me to take it! Is it going to make him look bad if I ask? Will it look bad on my "seasonal" position? I just don't know what to do!!!
Not to mention that I haven't worked in over 14 years. I thought I was a pretty quick learner. I thought I was a hard worker, stayed on task, worked well with others, made good quality judgments to help better the company I work for. Well, I thought I was. This stuff is very tedious stuff and it's a lot to remember. Am I asking the wrong questions during training? Am I not asking enough? Do I really understand how this works or am I just nodding my head so I don't look like a fool and tell them no? I don't know!!!
This is all going through my head at the same time. My mom's cancer, could I have cancer, am I making a good impression with my training leaders, am I learning the new programs and adjusting to them well, will I be able to stay on once the season is over? Am I a good enough employee that they even want me to stay?
I just don't know how to feel right now. Should I be happy that I got a job in the first place? Should I be happy that my mom caught her cancer early enough that there is time to fix it? Should I be happy that my husband and kids still love me even though I'm coming home from work at 4:45 and am in bed by 6 because I'm just not used to these long hours? I don't even know what to think anymore.
Geesh!!! I'm all over the map with these sensitive emotions!!! Ok, let's get back to normal here! Anytime now! Really, anytime. Any......time????
Thanks for reading my crazy emotions!
Next time I write, eh, type, I'll talk more about me and who I am and what I do.
Love always and forever,
Nini V.
So fast forward a few years and here we are. So, the start of this school year was going great. I applied for a substitute position at the schools as a parapro but nothing ever came out of it. So I applied a couple other places too. But this place has worked so well with Jason why not try out the call center right? I mean, what else could be right up my alley! Computers and talking on the phone! Perfect!!! So I applied and got the job a few weeks later. It was fun at first because I knew quite a bit of people there. I mean, they had to search for someone to interview me because most of them knew me! It was funny.
So I get hired and I go to orientation on a Wednesday. Then on Thursday I find out that my mom has stage two breast cancer and could spread quite aggressively. Wow! I start training on Monday and my mom has cancer. Huh. What a great way to start a job right? Well, here I am in my second week of training and all I want to do is crawl up into a ball and just start crying.
I thought about all that has happened and I'm honestly surprised I'm not in an asylum right now! I think I'm overwhelmed by all that I'm learning at work. It's quite a lot of information that we will have to hold onto in order to be a good customer service agent.
But it's not only that. Jason has worked for this place for a long time. He wants to make sure that I can hold up to the Vandy name! Not that I'm a bad worker or slack off often. But I did ask if I could take an extended lunch during training to go to my moms Oncology appt. Is that ok? Or what about asking for next Saturday off since I have a class that we paid $185 for me to take it! Is it going to make him look bad if I ask? Will it look bad on my "seasonal" position? I just don't know what to do!!!
Not to mention that I haven't worked in over 14 years. I thought I was a pretty quick learner. I thought I was a hard worker, stayed on task, worked well with others, made good quality judgments to help better the company I work for. Well, I thought I was. This stuff is very tedious stuff and it's a lot to remember. Am I asking the wrong questions during training? Am I not asking enough? Do I really understand how this works or am I just nodding my head so I don't look like a fool and tell them no? I don't know!!!
This is all going through my head at the same time. My mom's cancer, could I have cancer, am I making a good impression with my training leaders, am I learning the new programs and adjusting to them well, will I be able to stay on once the season is over? Am I a good enough employee that they even want me to stay?
I just don't know how to feel right now. Should I be happy that I got a job in the first place? Should I be happy that my mom caught her cancer early enough that there is time to fix it? Should I be happy that my husband and kids still love me even though I'm coming home from work at 4:45 and am in bed by 6 because I'm just not used to these long hours? I don't even know what to think anymore.
Geesh!!! I'm all over the map with these sensitive emotions!!! Ok, let's get back to normal here! Anytime now! Really, anytime. Any......time????
Thanks for reading my crazy emotions!
Next time I write, eh, type, I'll talk more about me and who I am and what I do.
Love always and forever,
Nini V.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Here I go!!!
Well, here I go! As I sit here waiting for my children to get ready for church I thought why not start a blog. A lot has gone through my head in the past few weeks so why not write, eh, type them out. Maybe I can get 1/4 of it down while my kids have 10 minutes before we head to church. Right?
Well, life here in the Vandy household was pretty good for the most part. My husband and I celebrated our 16 yr anniversary in July. The kids are now at three different schools, DJ at the local high school Ike, Karlee at the middle school Wilson and Ashlee in Elementary at Nob Hill. They are 14, 12 and 9. They are my pride and joy. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve them because they are such great kids. Heavenly Father has definitely blessed me with them. In the words of my brother/cousin (will explain later) "I just hope I don't ruin them!" They teach me an awful lot about myself.
Anyway, so life's been good here. We have our house we added on to a few years ago now and it fits my family perfectly. Jason has his TV room, I have a craft corner and the kids have both a living room and a family room to hang out in. Oh yeah, my mother in law Mary lives with us now too. It's a bit tight but we all make it work. For awhile there the TV room was DJ's room but I recently had the girls move in together and now Jason has his TV room back. It works. The girls fight a bit more then usual but I think it's worth it.
Ok, back to what ever I'm trying to get at. Well, I've been a stay at home mom since DJ was born. Actually a month before he was born. It's been nice for us. I've been able to see my kids make their first steps, watch all their programs at school (front row mostly!) and see them grow in good ways (and in bad). It's been an amazing journey. But if you know me, I'm not the one to sit still. Ashlee is now in the 3rd grade and I was starting to barrel down the long road of depression while everyone was in school. That's not a good thing! My husband and I were trying to decide if I wanted to work or go to school. Well, let's back up a little.
Jason has worked for a this special company (which shall remain nameless) for about 19 years now. It has been very good to us.
And, now it's time for church. Let me play around with the blogspot and see exactly how this works. I've going to end this now and finish later today. Hopefully you will stick around for the rest of the story!!!
Thanks for reading!
With much love,
Nini V.
Well, life here in the Vandy household was pretty good for the most part. My husband and I celebrated our 16 yr anniversary in July. The kids are now at three different schools, DJ at the local high school Ike, Karlee at the middle school Wilson and Ashlee in Elementary at Nob Hill. They are 14, 12 and 9. They are my pride and joy. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve them because they are such great kids. Heavenly Father has definitely blessed me with them. In the words of my brother/cousin (will explain later) "I just hope I don't ruin them!" They teach me an awful lot about myself.
Anyway, so life's been good here. We have our house we added on to a few years ago now and it fits my family perfectly. Jason has his TV room, I have a craft corner and the kids have both a living room and a family room to hang out in. Oh yeah, my mother in law Mary lives with us now too. It's a bit tight but we all make it work. For awhile there the TV room was DJ's room but I recently had the girls move in together and now Jason has his TV room back. It works. The girls fight a bit more then usual but I think it's worth it.
Ok, back to what ever I'm trying to get at. Well, I've been a stay at home mom since DJ was born. Actually a month before he was born. It's been nice for us. I've been able to see my kids make their first steps, watch all their programs at school (front row mostly!) and see them grow in good ways (and in bad). It's been an amazing journey. But if you know me, I'm not the one to sit still. Ashlee is now in the 3rd grade and I was starting to barrel down the long road of depression while everyone was in school. That's not a good thing! My husband and I were trying to decide if I wanted to work or go to school. Well, let's back up a little.
Jason has worked for a this special company (which shall remain nameless) for about 19 years now. It has been very good to us.
And, now it's time for church. Let me play around with the blogspot and see exactly how this works. I've going to end this now and finish later today. Hopefully you will stick around for the rest of the story!!!
Thanks for reading!
With much love,
Nini V.
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